27/11/2020_i wake up at midnight due to feeling being with people who loves you or wanted you

Time_3:27

27_Nov_2020

You know I hate it yar why I don't know I wake up early yar so I am writing it is a best choice what I have, being in a relationship is really enjoyable but at the same time you would like to spend your time with your love, right that's why my eyes open in midnight because I sleep early and when I wake up at night I short of remember her how kawai and adorable she is amazing yar. It was really a best experience but you know what because of my problem my heart hurt instant of feeling of love due to my anxiety might be the a reason or it would be different reasons I am gonna find the a reason behind my pain and why is uneasy without any reason it does unnecessary heart pain that can't be relive easily.

Time_11:53pm

Now I am feeling really well and satisfied and more like feeling well with great calmness in heart now I am now not anxious about anything, I am happy right now you know why because I have achieved some of my life goal right at yesterday or in this few weeks but I was anxious before but now I am feeling well thank God it's been a long time when I feel calm and piece this much again it's like I am totally normal and fine so I can complete my any business now.

Time_4:59pm

I am writing it down now that I just came from some work and feeling relive and sleepy but some what my heart is okay now but some where pins are trying to penetrate but it's not a problem I am totally feeling fine with calm and peace in mind. Okay that's all for now I have also talk 2 hours with someone( GF temperary ) taking as treatment for anxiety and other problems. I am trying my best still I will say, how The hell did I fall for this hole in my heart seems like I am not smart like how I think I was before it also proved me that I was smart but a fool who didn't able to see this coming through I let my guard down at some point Thats why I fall but let's try to heal it with great peace and treatment I should check my doctor for this. I will.